(2013 - ongoing)
ABOUT THE ARTWORK: I am not another fat kid story. There are times when I do assume that role, but it does not define me. I can find many reasons to explain why I ate, but it would be all too easy to displace blame. What people do not realize are the functions of my size: I used my weight as a barrier to mask vulnerability and create walls as a way to protect myself. It is how I survived as I hid behind my weight. I make self-portraits to shift perspective from how I see myself to my interpretation of how others see me. Self-Untitled visualizes the feeling that false perceptions provoke, and speaks more broadly to the mistreatment of a person. Self-Untitled is a body of work that requires fearlessness. I have had to set aside doubts to convey my intended message. I think assumptions derive from personal history understanding. My assumptions emerge when I make conclusions about the present using past experiences. This pattern is cyclical, but I can change the outcome by humanizing myself to others. What I have learned and strive to depict in my art is that being vulnerable and forming connections can be healing.
I share my story as an opportunity for a viewer to say, “I’ve been there too.”
ABOUT THE ARTIST: Sam Geballe is an artist living and working in the San Francisco Bay Area. Sam’s involvement in art began in early childhood, and they have frequently used creative expression to cope with loss and as a means of communication and to form a connection with others. In 2013, Sam began work on a self-portrait series, Self Untitled, which explores body-image, gender, sexuality, trauma, and healing, and continues to challenge Sam’s beliefs that contribute to their struggle with self-acceptance. Sam incorporates various mediums into their practice; writing, drawing, film-making, and bookmaking, and they find that all mediums are crucial in their work. Self Untitled continues as an on-going project, as they believe growth, perspective, and adaptation come over an extended period. Sam uses the pronouns they/them/theirs and identifies as gender-queer.